Friday, November 28, 2003

hMm...
was talking to xiaozhi on the phone..
and she nice enough to hear mi whine abt my pathetic results...
suddenly v afraid of the future... seems kinda bleak ar...
like.. i don really have anything that im good at...
and you knoww... nth much to be proud of..

went down to talk to mom...now i feel even more confused..
its so contradicting...
firstly she says... oh.. don be noble and do sth more pragmatic in future..
den the nex minute she goes.. hey follow ur dreams and do wht u really enjoy...
afterwards she says... you shd be more matured and serious...
and den she continues... you juz have to be yourself...~
liKe... huh...

nvm... sometimes i don know myself either...
yeh.. and she said some stuff that was quite hurting...
stuff that probably no one wld dare to tell me...
weaknesses that no one wld point out...
she did...haha .. now i know why they say.. the truth hurts*

maybe shes right... and in this case probably everyone is right...
i shd be more matured... instead of being happy go lucky all the time...
look where it has gotten mi... no where...

amanda lim li ying..
wake up and its time to get serious...~

illusion-