Saturday, January 17, 2004

im backk..

has been quite long since i updated...
hmm...life is still okay in mj...
cant say its depressing there.. but not v happy either...
i kinda dread going to sch...jc life is tiring...
everyday is so routined... so meaningless...
end sch at arnd 4+... and the longer days end at 730..
thats when i have choir... choir is okay... ppl are v friendly...
maybe im still not used to it... i miss dhschoir...
glad to have met new friends though... ppl like yvonne..charlene..tj..sam..gladys..
yea.. and got to know xiaochu better...v cute de..

i dunno... maybe its one of the blue days again..
all the lit lessons abt utopia has made mi a v down person...
which is gd... keeps mi on earth..
caroline said in class...
is it really utopia... or is it because of ignorance that we are happy..
i kinda agree... i guess thats why they say ignorance is bliss...
utopia lessons really got mi thinking...abt the dark side of the world..
the terrorism... sufferings... the hearts turning cold...
but somehow... maybe we've forgotten abt the compassion that ppl still have...
yea i believe there is still love in the world...
irving said that utopia always has the element of distance...
i agree...because how can a perfect world materialise?
hmm.. bliss is when we are contented...
maybe when we learn to be contented... utopia wld exist...
i dunno..

i dunno wht i want anymore...
everything is confusing mi...
im so easily swayed by other ppl's opinions and thoughts...
its hard to be myself these days...

oh ya.. i hate backstabbers...
i know its survival of the fittest..
but i still dont like you...i detest you..
why can u juz disappear...stop bullying her..

i wish she wld watch out for herself more...
i wish she wld think for herself more..
but i know she is too nice a person to do that...
tt's why ppl are always taking advantage of her..
theres nth i can do...it hurts to see her so upset
i'll always be there for you..

haiyo this entry is so depressing eh..
juz need an outlet to release the frustration..

~its gonna be juz fine...

illusion-